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Nine,

——What was the experience of craving someone like?

Coveting, arousing. To want to touch him, to offend him, to see him unable to cope. To want to give yourself to him, to let him do the things he wants to do but never could before, interesting things, terrible things, maybe even forbidden things.

But he was completely ignorant to all of this, he hovered around unrestrainedly on a place just within your radar, answering a phone call in one moment, changing his clothes in the next, leaving you alone to stand your ground and wrestle against your weak self-control, incessantly recharging your delusions until your heart went bankrupt.

Xu Xing didn’t have to go to work this morning, he only had an unimportant meeting in the afternoon. As a result, he took advantage of the time to go to the gym at noon, returned home at 2 o’clock, and was still able to have afternoon tea while making use of every second. Compared to his usual pace, this was already considered a rather leisurely day.

He poured a glass of Ovaltine for Wu Shijiu, skilfully controlling the drink’s colour and temperature, and put two cod liver oil supplement pills in a small dish. These kinds of unremarkable trifles would usually depend on his supervision. The other was currently changing into his uniform and tidying up his backpack unwillingly, having to return to school for an evening self-study session in half an hour.

“I’m leaving.” The little bastard stomped his feet with grief and indignation, “I hate it.”

“You’re still coming back tonight.”

“I’m leaving!” He insisted emphatically.

“…Then I politely urge you to stay.” Xu Xing was shirtless, he poked his head out from the front of the wardrobe and proposed, “How about you wait for me? I’ll take you there, it’s on the way.”

He looked at Wu Shijiu’s black and white school uniform, his trouser legs were perfectly straight and long. Wu Shijiu put down the glass and wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, then walked towards him aggressively.

“No!”

That determined enthusiasm completely crumbled a second before he kissed him.

“Recharge me.”

The young man’s voice still had the magnetism of the time after his voice change, somewhere between young and mature, almost moving.

“Or else these five hours will be too hard to bear.”

The thick curtains were drawn in Xu Xing’s room, the light and noise had no way to come in, and the people and things were covered by blushing yellow shadows. It was very easy to be led astray when spending time alone in such a confined environment.

He was embraced by the neck, and had no choice but to compromise, “You can’t sit still for five hours?”

Wu Shiju rubbed against him with the tip of his nose, his words were wilful, but his tone was clearly acting spoiled, “That’s right.”

“What are you going to do, then?”

“Skip class.”

“What are you going to do after skipping?”

“Whatever I want with you.”

“And if I don’t allow it?”

“Then…” His low words came to a stop at this point, and he slowly pressed against the man’s lips, “Please do whatever you want with me.”

His mouth had the lingering taste of cocoa, not bitter, but rather an overflowing sweetness softened by his lips and tongue. He was sweating, perhaps he was uneasy, but he wasn’t shy in the slightest. He learnt everything quickly, both good and bad, and was ignorant, not yet knowing anything about love. Hot-blooded, he just impetuously took the initiative to demand things from you, and you knew this was wrong, but you liked it.

Xu Xing wasn’t wearing a shirt, and Wu Shijiu clung onto his shoulders, his hands sliding over his bare back, fingertips moist and cold, leaving scratches on the surface of his skin.

The young man with weak concentration eventually couldn't hold on, and he wobbled while standing on tiptoes, losing his balance. Xu Xing almost couldn’t hold on to him, the two leaned on the wardrobe’s wooden sliding door and scattered threads of water were dragged out when their lips and tongues separated.

His eyes exuded the dampness of the first awakening of love, and his hands would stubbornly not let go. He leaned against Xu Xing’s throat to catch his breath, regretting this unavoidable interruption.

“I can’t… stand steady,” His face blushed deep red, and he gave an embarrassed, quiet laugh, “My legs went soft…”


——Up until now, all his scattered and fragmented instincts, his greed with unclear boundaries, and his thirst for dependence and touch all pointed towards a clear answer.

This was called desire.


Ten,

Rushing to not be late, Xu Xing drove the black car and forcefully brought Wu Shijiu on board to take him to school. The two people were agitated the whole way there. Xu Xing even smoked a cigarette, despite the fact he rarely did.

Although Wu Shijiu’s heart was fluctuating violently, he still opened his mouth and spoke in the same old way, “…Uncle Xu, you’re real handsome when you smoke.”

“…Thank you.” Xu Xing’s hand was already trembling.

“I want to sleep with you.”

“……” Xu Xing stepped on the break, and he opened the car door for him, “Get off the car.”

“You’re actually kicking me out!” Wu Shijiu began making a scene, “Damn, am I your little darling or not?!”

“You’re almost 1.8 metres tall, and you still have the nerve to… fine, fine, fine, you are, you are. Little brat.” Xu Xing put his cigarette out and reached out to pluck a strand of loose hair that had stuck to his brow, “We’ll talk again when you come back from school tonight, okay?”

“Okay.”

Wu Shijiu closed the car door and turned around, leaning over the car window like he was committing a robbery and fiercely saying, “I have something to discuss with you. Seriously.”

“Hmm.”

Xu Xing followed him with his gaze as he entered the school, then started the car again and heaved a long sigh.

Discuss what?

Love?


At 10 o’clock, Wu Shijiu returned home from school. Xu Xing was in his study, he’d left the door unlocked for him and a late-night snack.

He didn’t greet him, and it was unusually quiet. He directly went upstairs for a shower and tidied up, and only went downstairs to look for Xu Xing when he seemed proper enough for a discussion.

“Uncle.”

He straightforwardly climbed up on Xu Xing’s bed and laid down flat as if facing death.

Xu Xing, “……”

It was about time. Xu Xing tidied up his design plans and stuffed them into a folder, put away his computer keyboard and set aside all the matters at hand, then went over to sit on the side of the bed. “Speak.”

Wu Shijiu turned over and sat up, taking in a deep breath.

“I want to touch you, and I want you to touch me, any way is fine. I want to kiss you, with tongue. I want to sit with you, I want to hear you explain things, and I want to sleep in your bed, even if you don’t agree.”

“I want to be in that kind of relationship with you.”

He crossed his legs and tilted his head, independently considering something and expressing, “Maybe the time isn’t right yet, and we aren’t there yet, but I’m confident.”

Seeing that Xu Xing wasn’t saying anything, he snaked his hand along the fluffy bedsheets and cautiously tugged at the hem of the man’s clothes.

“You’d never refuse me. Right?”

The man turned around and hugged him, he buried himself in the crook of his neck, kissed his earlobes and the pulse on his neck, and pressed his hands against his lower back, intentionally using force. He knelt, his scalp numb from the kiss, unable to think normally, unable to move half his body at all.

“Right.” Xu Xing spoke beside his ear, “But I’ll turn into a wolf, an idiot, I’ll become petty.”

“I’ll control you, I’ll make you angry, I’ll give you a bunch of boring sermons, I’ll take off your clothes and make you cry.”

“Despite this, if you don’t mind, we’ll do what you want. Anything.”

He was hugged tightly.

“I would never refuse you.”

——Still not enough. This is far from enough.

“Then, when are you going to sleep with me, uncle Xu?”

——It’s still possible to love even more.

“Do we still need to pick a date? I’ll sleep with you whenever you want.”


Longing for you, your body, your present and your future, your constant gaze.


END.